Sunday, January 29, 2012

Saw this on tumblr

and i decided to do it :E

Reblog and bold what applies to you.

I’m loud. (well depends on my mood i suppose)
I’m sarcastic. (trying to tone it down though)
I cry easily. (when it comes to dramas or movies or when people is not happy with me T_T)
I have a bad temper.
I’m easy to get along with. (most of the time)
I have more enemies than friends.
I’ve smoked.
I drink coffee.
I clean my room daily.

My appearance:

I wear makeup.
I wear a piece of jewelry at all times.
I wear contacts.
I have glasses.
I have braces.
I change my hair color often.
I have a piercing.
I have small feet.


I’m in a relationship now.
I’m single.
I’m not sure.
I’m crushin’.
I’ve missed an ex before.
I’m always scared of being hurt.
I’ve told someone I loved them when I didn’t.
I’ve told someone I didn’t love them when I did.
I’ve been in love more than two times.
I’ve never been in love.
I believe in love at first sight. (i suppose. i'm a hopeless romantic *wink* LOL)


I have a best friend.
I have at least ten REAL friends.
I’ve gotten a phone call in the last 48 hours from a friend.
I’ve beaten up a friend.
I’ve been in a serious fight with a friend.
I can trust at least five people with my life.
I have a couple friends THAT I LOVE.


I’ve been on a plane.
I’ve taken a taxi.
I’ve taken a city bus.
I’ve taken a school bus.

I’ve made a speech.
I’ve been in some sort of club.
I’ve spent 24 hours on the computer straight.
I’ve spent close to 24 on the computer.


I listen to R&B.
I listen to pop.

I listen to techno
I listen to rock.
I download music.
I buy CD’s.

Family Life:

I get along with both of my parents for the most part.
I get along with one of my parents for the most part.
My biological parents are still together.
I have at least one brother.
I have at least one sister.

I’ve been kicked out of the house.
I’ve ran away from my home.
I’ve sworn at my parents.
I’ve made my parents cry.
I’ve lied to my parents.
I’ve lied to my parents about where I am.
I’ve lied to my parents about what I’m doing.

I’ve lied to my parents so I’d be allowed out.
I can’t lie to my parents. (D,8 better not sobs)


I’ve been brown.
I’ve had streaks.
I’ve cut my hair in the past year.
I’ve dyed my hair in the past year.
I’ve been blonde.
I’ve had black (naturally black hair).
I’ve been red.
I’ve been light brown.
I use conditioner.
I’ve curled my hair.
I’ve straightened my hair.


i was bored .___.

Thursday, January 26, 2012

2012 early drawings

it's been sooo long since i last draw something, so i did it. i gotta confess though, my hand did hurt a bit. maybe because of the lack of practice. SOBS. T___T

being in uni does change me in a way that, well, i draw girls more now LOL i've lay down the bl stuff a bit u__u i feel so clean. ahem.

so yeah!!!! follow me on tumblr & err... dA! tq!

Wednesday, January 25, 2012

so bored T__T

holiday is so friggin boring omg =A= i wanted to sleep, but i guess i got too bored that I couldn't even shut my eyes!! can you believe it??

so i had a quick lunch. trying to watch my diet u__u my weight has been sky rocketing high, it's getting a bit worrying OTL

ate a small bowl of beef porridge + oyster sauce, and i'm probably the only person in this house that uses plastic spoon. i just don't like it when the metal spoon hits my teeth. haha.

and last but not least...

: (

cleaned up my room!!

after what seems like ages, i've finally managed to force myself into cleaning up my room!!! took a before after image, but decided not to post it up. save myself from forever being embarrassed u_u ; ... OK FINE!!! but not without some heavy mosaic effect HMPH!!



so embarrassing =A= ;; finally i have a proper space to move around!! before this, you'd have to master the art of maneuvering to move about lol (or just step on stuff pffftt LIKE A BOSS!! haha)

wanted to shoot some pictures of loots that i have bought during holidays, but too tired *lazy* to do so. maybe next time : )

managed to snap just 1 pic tho. bought a new black... shirt... thingy. was experimenting on how it will look like on my formal wear. i have to say, it's not THAT bad 8D (tho i thnk this picture made me look like i'm pregnant or smthng =_= ;;)

Cotton On : RM59

gotta get myself one of those hat/bag rack and a full length mirror :T pretty sure can get some cheap ones somewhere. but where!!!???

Monday, January 16, 2012

if i have 1 minute/ hour/ day to live

man!! i sound so sissy!!! OTL did a favor to my friend. hope this helps! i really love my friend's survey. felt very serene doing this. it made me think about stuff too.


first things first, i'll tell my family how much i love them. i would personally tell each one of them what i particularly love about them, their quirks, their jokes etc etc and what i don't like about them. i will tell them everything that i think can be adjusted/ changed in my point of view, in hope that they will and make the family even perfect.

2nd i will tell my bestfriends how i love them sooo much that they are my rays of sunshine on a cloudy day. thank them for standing up to my every whims no matter how annoying i can be. thank them for all the things they have done for me, thank them for all the little (and huge) gifts they gave me and that i seriously treasure them with all my hearts. thank them for the times we spent together and thank them for existing. i could wish for nothing more :)

3rdly what i will do is to tell each and everyone of my friends/ acquaintances thank you for giving me a small part of their life. get to know me even for a bit.

4th; tell the person that i like/ have a crush on, that i like him. even if he does not respond to my feelings the way i do, i will still appreciate the moment he had spared for me throughout his entire life. I will wish him the best in life. :)

5th; i would wanna spend the last moment of my life with my friends and family. i want them to tell me jokes instead of mourning the moment i would be gone. have fun. eat cakes. sit somewhere green and grassy, with gentle wind blowing on my face as i take in the forms, characteristics and quirks of each and every one of those who are by my side at that particular moment and engraved them in my head. i would like to smile to myself and think about how lucky i am to have & know each and everyone of them.

IF lets just say the person that i like returned my feelings, i would wanna hold hands with him and lay my head on his shoulder till my heart stops beating.

yeap. perfect. : ) just typing this out made me feel so happy and calm T v T what about you guys? what if you have 1 minute/ hour/ day to live? how would you want your moment to end? type it out!! and do share it with me!

*punch walls*

i was very frustrated today. everything seems to anger me somehow. EVERYTHING!! even when somebody asks me a question about where i wanna go, what i wanna eat, you name it!!! it's like, i'm ready to explode any second!! just push the wrong button, and i'll go BABOOOMMM!!!

wanted to find somebody to let the steam off, but everytime, EVERY FRIGGIN TIME, i wanted to sms somebody i'll be like "what if this person is busy? what if this person is spending time with ossum bunch of people and i'm there, bothering him/her about my sad sad very sad pathetic situation? and i don't think sharing about my sad sad very sad pathetic situation will do this person any good eh?" T___T do you guys understand my dilemma now??!! i need my zen!!!

i remember talking to this guy, who happens to be the owner of this longhouse that we stayed at during our field research few weeks ago. he was a graduate from psychology (i think) major. so i asked a few things about myself. what does he see when he looked at me? what was his 1st impression about me? he told me, i was the 1st person among all my 9 other friends that he remembered. 1; it's because the 1st time i saw him, i said something like "man, this guy look so scary!" well i didn't realize i said it out loud!! haha so he remembered me right there & then. 2ndly, i was the one who contacted him during the whole process of booking the rooms. i was the middle person. so he remembered my voice. 3rdly; he noticed that i am a very talkative person, easy to get along with, a very fun person. 4thly; i have the leadership quality in me (... i don't know abt this u_u) and he also told me that, in the outside world, i most probably won't have any problem adjusting myself to the people, the environment, the society.

1 thing that bugged me throughout the whole, heart-to-heart sharing, if i can call it that, is... well, the sole question that i really wanted to ask, how do i open up to people?

I know i may look like a very extrovert type, well maybe i do, especially when it comes to socializing with people, talking about light & easy things. but when it comes to talking about topics that is a little bit deeper than i usually talked about, i can feel myself shutting up. it's like, i am scared to say anything and even feared that i will blurt out something involuntarily. I did that once before, talking about something that i shouldn't, but i think i should in a way, but maybe i shouldn't (YOU GET WHAT I MEAN??!!) and i went home regretting everything that i told to that said person. at the same time though, i can feel this heavy weight lifting up from my shoulder. it's the spur of the moment thing i suppose. i was too relaxed and my said friend was relaxed too and sharing stuff related to life. i guess i really did get caught up with the moment. but i assure you, this kind of moment doesn't happen very often in my life u_u

so back to the said topic, i wanted to ask him about this problem of mine, but i don't know what happened in the end, everything just went wrong! well not really. basically in the end, the answer that i really want never came.

but so far, i am blessed with a good friend that will constantly ask me about stuff. things that i will never thought of asking others, and this in a way, trained me, albeit very slowly, into opening up to people even more. well people being that said friend only so far LOL but i am trying!!!

*sigh* was really in a very very bad mood today. so i want to apologize to those (especially my twitter follower) that saw my rant/ bitch anywhere online T_T i swear i don't do it THAT often. so please forgive me.

good bye T__T