Pour it all

I recently bought a new note/sketchpad. it measures 10.5x10.5 cm. It's a very cute book if i dare say so myself. The cover had my initial on it. well initial to my 1st name. a big, rainbow-colored, letter "i". Friend persuaded on me getting this since it was a close call between another different design (though i am pretty sure he said that just so he can get my arse away from the stationery section) I swear, every time i went to the stationery section, it's like hunting for treasure. ok more like finding treasures but have limited space in your knapsack or something -Or in my case, a downside on my economic state- so you'd have to make a life altering decision in which treasure to bring back with you. Le sigh.

I was thinking of filling this baby with things that i have hard time saying out loud, but seeing how i always leave my stuff laying around, so that plan was a no go. Maybe someday, when i have my own place, i'll start keeping diaries. For now, i'll settle with writing down parts of song lyrics that gave me that pang, some interesting facts & quotes, random drawings & facts about myself. You can say this is a part of my effort in discovering myself. i suppose.

Holiday is not ending anytime soon. I'm getting tired of it. 3 month holiday is just too much. So far, the things that i have done during my free time;

• draw
• sleep
• more sleep
• watch videos
• eat
• went out with friends (seldom)
• clean room (3 days, and not even close to finishing)
• ...play with phone (breaking personal record in tap sonic)
• tv
• more tv
• read books on my mobile phone (books that will probably not improve my vocabulary range whatsoever)

Finding part-time job is one of the option, but i don't have the transport. so that would be a bit of a problem. Some friends suggested opening commissions, but lately my drive in drawing went a little bit downhill. 

what the hell happened?!

p/s craving for a good cinnamon roll

short trip pt.1

i still remember how every time when it's the semester break, i'd be switching off my phone. doing nothing other than TV, games, reading books, sleep, more sleep, draw & of course socializing through online media PFFT hahaha but i was contented somehow before with this routine of mine :/ now it's like, i keep wanting to find me people to hang out with, but none (well maybe 1 or 2) would wanna call me up just for a short drink (or long ones) or window shopping =_= i think i have a lot more friends who'd call me up to hang out during college years somehow. haha. i wonder why is it so different here. This time, i haven't switch off my phone at all. restless. got back to my drawing & photoshop stuff. i felt a bit more, peaceful somehow. forgot everything & just focusing on what i love to do. minding my own business. :)

anyways, family decided to do a short trip to Lahad Datu (somewhere in Borneo. google it up ORZ) to settle some... business. so decided to follow along since it's been awhile since we've bee anywhere far together. Haven't been to this place for ages now. Can't really remember if there were any changes to the city or not :/

this place has this lonely, solemn air around it somehow. maybe it was because of the dark history of pirate attack in 1985.

another weekend foray

my friend Alice contacted me & asked whether i wanna hang out with her on saturday or not, so i said SURE.

had to wake up very early since it's a long drive to her place (she didn't know that LOL) so the 1st place we head to was Suria Sabah since she's never been there before :) my attempt in trying out Fullhouse went down the drain again T__T i seriously think i should go only on weekdays since it seems impossible to even try & go there on the weekends =_= so we head to Upperstar. its been awhile haha.

ordered the normal dish grilled chicken with an extra baked mushroom soup. let's just say my friend enjoyed her meal & nothing can make me happier than a satisfied stomach be it my own or someone else lol.

both of us were practically typing away on our smart devices like crazy haha checking in on fb, instagraming LOL people nowadays pfft

after filling in our stomachs, decided to walk around for a bit. i didn't buy anything as nothing really interest me here, and those that really do, cost a fortune! lol so i just let my friend shop. afterwards, went to another shopping mall since i wanted to get myself drawing tools. but bugger it all, the stationery shop was closed =_= wtf! and another shop didn't sell what i wanted. managed to get myself a toolbox for my brushes & paints though. so i guess it was not a failed day afterall. Left my friend with her pedicure activity haha looking at her being happy made me happy XD and we talked a lot. about life. about friends. about how pretty her nails are (pfft) and how lucky we are to know each other :)

it's hard for me to find a girlfriend that i can really click with! most of my friends are guys and so far, i can actually count with only 1 hand the amount of girlfriends that i can really talk with and most of them are not even from my own course... so lonely somehow. i asked her opinion on this matter and she said it's probably the way i think and do things. it's not like the other girls. well i do admit i am more open with a lot of things compare to other girls in class i suppose & i just love to talk (but do more listening than talking) haha BUT!! it doesn't matter! yeah! slowly ifa. slowly.

after she has done her pedicure, dinner! went to this place called La Viva cafe / Fatty Chef. I hv to say, the atmosphere in this restaurant is just so romantic! hahaha this warrants for some photos!!! pardon me for the color inconsistencies. some i edited with photoshop, some i didn't... some i just took from instagram LOL

friend's beef watan hor. can't remember the price haha.

mee mamak RM12

I'll give it a... 2.4 out of 5 i suppose. it tasted ok actually. normal. mmm. and my drink is a tad sour :T but all in all, it was ok. couldn't finish it tho haha.

after that i remembered my mom asked me to buy her stuff from kaison! so thank goodness i'll be passing another shopping mall on my way to sending my friend back. so we decided to make 1 last stop at 1Borneo. that's 3 shopping malls in 1 day!! hahaha!! went to kaison, didn't find the thing i was looking for (brilliant) almost, ALMOST wanted to get myself Karamell Almondo's vanilla ice cream, but i'm proud of myself for not falling into the temptation XD Alice wanted to drink starbucks to keep her awake at night for assignment sake, so OK! head to the new starbucks at ground floor.

Alice were happily choosing what to drink & i was a bit disappointed looking at the selections of food they have. NO SHEPHERDS PIE. BLASPHEMY. hahaha! and then this guy was like "hey, i remember you. do you remember me?" i was a bit blur after he said that, so i wrecked my brain in thinking where i have met him before, to no avail. "you remember! we met before! you were with my friend, that tall guy with glasses?" ...... "OH!!!! YOU!!! i remember you!!! u worked upstairs before right?!" , "yeah! welcome to the new starbucks shop!" i was so hyped up people actually remembered my face! hahahaha when i don't .__. guilty. ahem. but we talked & talked. conclusion? he's a nice guy! hahaha promised him i'll get back there for the starbucks membership card XD and i shall! just not anytime soon. LOL.

OH! it's that guy! lol

i am pretty tempted to get this card. just scared i won't be using it to it's full benefit. but rm20 for a lifetime membership? 8D WHY NOT???!! will drop by again some other time.

that's it. it's very nice to go out with someone who won't go "omg, this place looks so expensive! lets not get inside!" or "omg!!!!! the food here is so expensive! let's find some other place" once in awhile. i mean, it's never a crime to just get into an expensive looking shop to look around! nobody is forcing you to buy anything! hahhaha and if expensive food means quality, then i don't see a problem in that. you are consuming something that will get into your body!!! the least you could do is to make sure it is safe & clean & good. RIGHT? RIGHT!!!!!?? //facepalm// but i could've sworn i heard my wallet weeping in misery afterwards hahaha

overall? i had fun! : ) THANKS ALICE <3

I achieved something!!

i suppose... pardon the inconsistency to all the pictures below LOL

my ossum friend aurelia *winks* came to Sabah for holiday since i insisted her to because i'm on holiday. So decided to bring her "play". at 1st we planned to go to Kundasang which is somewhere near Mt Kinabalu and is apparently the tallest mountain in South East Asia. We talked about this with another 2 of my guy friends, but they are worried about the road and the fact that I'M gonna drive there >_> after loads of, uh, words of wisdom (lol) from them, and tips & tricks and all, both of us girls decided to not take the risk driving up the winding hill and just decided to go to Kudat! which is famous for its Tip of Borneo, and a less winding road haha. sorta lost a bit, ok A LOT of my confidence after listening to all the guys have to say about the road to Kundasang .___. & to be honest, i agree with them, since i am sort of new with this driving thing. I AM STILL UNDER P for crying out loud!

SO ON TO KUDAT!

drove there by 11.30 and reached 3hours after. we decided to stay near the tip of Borneo :9 we picked to stay overnight at Tommy's Place. We chose a room with 2 single beds and it cost us RM130 including breakfast 8D

By the time we arrived at Tanjung Simpang Mengayau, it was already was past lunch time and both of us were starving! we checked in, rest for a bit, and hunt for food. Thank god there was a small restaurant nearby. Had our late lunch, and immediately went to the beach!!! 8D played around, and immediately head to the Tip of Borneo :9 somehow for some reason, i didn't really took a lot of picture. maybe because i don't wanna burden my brain with choosing the best composition, waiting for the right moment to snap a photo. I just wanna walk around and admire the beautiful nature. For some reason, there was an ice cream, uh, bike? at the tip, and i consider myself lucky!! hahaha ate 2 ice creams (which cost a fortune u_u) and hang around that place. we decided to wait there until the sun sets, but unfortunately, the sunset was blocked by this massive cloud 8,D SAD hahaha but managed to lie down on the rock and just let the ocean breeze blow on my face while aurelia busy herself with photo taking hahaha.

after that, we went back home, shower, and had dinner at the lodge. I have to say, the food was not bad!! I ordered a RM18 beef rendang with rice, which, i showered with extra salt since it was a wee bit tasteless. BUT NO HARM DONE! it was still nice! and a nice barli drink :9 (thanks for the treat aurelia!) afterwards, i rummage through their book shelf and pick me a nice but considerably lame book and spent the rest of the night reading outdoors while listening to the sound of the ocean.

top photo courtesy of Aurelia lolol

afterwards, we went into our room, and just lie on the bed. Since i've been driving the whole day, i think i was tired and i fell asleep the moment my head hits the pillow.

Woke up by 5-6am and after washing my face, i went outside to continue my "admiring the nature" time. Brought my book and camera along (which i didn't use much) and lie on the hammock that was tied outside somewhere near the beach. the sea breeze was delightful!

afterwards, i went back to the room and woke my friend up (so much for watching the sunrise LOL) and by 8 smthng, head out to get ourselves some breakfast!! It was a buffet breakfast, English style plus fried rice & noodle. I've haven't had so much to eat for breakfast in a very long time! i think i've had 2 or 3 helpings that morning XD i remembered i ate 6 sausages LOL I love the fact that they didn't fry the sausages but steamed it instead! yay!

after finishing our breakfast, it was time for the beach again!!! managed to have a quick dip in the water. the waves were just so frightening i don't even dare to get more than a few feet into the water. pathetic i know u__u but it's been awhile since i went into the ocean. the water had this very pretty blue-ish green color and i can see right through it! awesome!

by 11am, it was time for us to say goodbye TvT *sigh* the boss of the lodge is friendly and he even recommended us to bring our own seafood next time and he will prepare fire for us to do some bbq!! overall, the lodge is just right for those who needs a place to chill for the night and the good food there is considered a bonus ;D i'll give it 3.5 out of 5

passed the wheel to my friend, and she drove from the lodge to the city since we need to fill in the gas tank bought some snacks and I drove back again all the way ;D IT WAS FUN!!

decided to stop by Shangri La Rasa Ria resort (as we always do whenever we went to kudat PFFTT) just to walk around and admire the sceneries and chill for awhile.

photo below courtesy of Aurelia again haha XD

it was nice playing at the beach. the wedding pavilion was covered with fabrics that day. i think somebody just had a wedding there. they picked a very good place for wedding T v T i envy em *foreveralone.jpg* SOBS

SO YEAAAHH!!!! 8D had a very ossum trip with my ossum friend and not to mention I drove very very far for the 1st time! T v T yeap. definitely an achievement for me. Now excuse me while i spend the remaining of my holidays by doing something, boring... uuuhhh

Holiday yet again

ok... so after i broke my phone, now it's my simcard's turn.

CAN YOU BELIEVE IT?!! it does not break into half!!! it sort of... I don't know how to say it!! slides into half??? @_@ I have never seen such things happen before! never even cross my mind that it is possible to happen. OMG. now nobody can contact me unless i get myself a new simcard, of course along with a new phone *winks* ... DARN!! this means i have to remember a new number!!! DARNNIT!!!

ON OTHER NOTE!!!! 8D I am currently reading Richard Montanari's PLAY DEAD novel. so far so good. I know it'll be a great book!!! i've read the BROKEN ANGELS by him and it was very captivating. he is soooo on my list of wanted authors.

huh. well there's not much going on for my holiday. so far. T_T will be going back to Perak soon and there's no internet connection there for pete's sake!!! OMG!!! how to do my FPS like that?! HOW!!!!? well i'm sure i can figure it out. talk about being optimistic xD HAH! i was fed properly since my parents took me. of course i'd be happy! HAHAHA!! PROPER BREAKFAST OMG!!! *wipe tears* yeap~~

the muscle pain from the Broga Hill trip was gone too. quick. don't even realize when it disappeared. hmmppphh. well!! i'm gonna continue reading my book, after i finish tending my pet in pet society!! HAHAHAHAAHAHHA!!!

sick mentally and physically

teringin pulak nak ber-blogging dalam Bahasa Melayu. tapi semenjak tinggal di Sunway ni, bahasa pertuturan seharian guna Bahasa Inggeris =_= aish... rasa sedikit kekok bila taip dalam bahasa melayu ni. ya, memang satu pengakuan yang amat memalukan memandangkan saya ni bangsa Melayu... campur sedikit Kadazan dari sebelah mak 8D jadi saya sebenarnya lebih selesa berbahasa melayu sabahan daripada bahasa semenanjung ni. bila difikirkan semula, memang pelik cara sebutan mereka....ya...memang pelik.

... =_= ok, I'm blabbering. hahaha!

apa2 pun, semenjak 2 menjak ni, memang tak cukup tidur =A= dengan finals hanya dihujung jari, jadi memang tidak memeranjatkan kalau saya jatuh sakit biarpun hanya untuk 1 - 2 hari sahaja. xD panic abah and mama aku dengar aku sakit (eh...dah tukar ke "aku" pulak) mungkin sebab diorang tau, kalau saya sakit memang yang paling teruk sekali dalam family haha! sebab saya ni jarang sakit, jadi bila penyakit mula menyerang, fuh! memang teruk 8D tapi syukur lah, tak bertambah teruk. mungkin sebab makan banyak makanan yang ada vitamin C kan... dan tidur sejak dari hari jumaat lagi hingga hari ini (ahad) 8D memang menyegarkan hahaha!!

cuti tak lama lagi TwT memang tak sabar. boleh balik sabah ;3; uh.. uh... biarpun saya ada kampung dekat perak nu, tapi memang tak dapat lawan rumah di sabah ;w; -nyanyi lagu negeri sabah- haaiih~~ perkara pertama sekali saya akan buat bila tiba kat sabah? padam semua alat komunikasi 8D dah jemu dengan teknologi =_= tak sabar nak padam komputer, nak padam handfon dan sebagainya. mungkin saya patut buat list...

1 - off all means of communication (seperti yang saya katakan di atas)

2 - tidur 24/7 =_= ;; (i wish... LOL)

3 - makan masakan Abah 8D weee!!!

4 - tengok mama main ps2~

5 - kacau anak buah aku xD

6 - MAIN PIANO!! ;A;

7 - kacau adik2 main biola and piano >8D keh keh keh~~ nobody can be better than me!! WOOT!! *kena tampar*

8 - lari pecut dari pintu bilik mama&abah dan terus lompat kat atas katil mereka xD woo!!! (gerenti kena marah) HAHAHAHA!

9 - pergi jalan2 dengan kakak aku 8D Times bookstore~ mmm.... starbucks mmmm~~~~~~

10 - Beli baju... banyak banyak baju 8D ...dan seluar _-_

11 - habiskan game Persona3 and Persona 4 u_u tak habis2 main lagi game ni... uugghh...

12 - masih dalam perancangan....

memang kalau fikir betul2, list ni memang endless 8D aaa... bila fikir tentang cuti, memang dah tak ada mood nak buat kerja~

cuti~ cepatlah datang~~~

side mirror kereta ni kacau betul =_= ... time matahari terbenam kt sabah mmg cantik ;3;

p/s what about you guys punya list? 8D lalala~ i hope my tatabahasa tak teruk mana Dx

feeling...

i don't know... weird... holiday is coming near to its end. still got 1 week plus to go. =_= i hate to say this -well actually no- but i really wanna get back to Sabah after I finish my study in college. then, maybe i'll continue study? Im just not ready yet to let go of my school life haha. but let's just see what'll happen later on.

the fact that I got a new piano -YEAH BABY!!!! 8D- makes me feel more jumpy than usual xD thanks to my parents. Cost them RM9800 for that piece of beauty. TwT I swear to god I'll try my best to repay them when i have my own income! they gave me too much already! i love them!! ;3; even the fact that my sister got herself a new pink colored VAIO laptop didn't surpass the joy of having a new piano 8D (well actually my dad bought it for her...) cost him RM3000+ for it. Not that i deny them for buying... but i just don't see the point of her getting a new laptop JUST YET. so far, i don't see her doing anything useful with it cept for some songs and the webcam that can transform my face into a viking... and elvis...and marilyn monroe... and got laughed at by them over it... I'm serious.... =_= neat gadget... but nothing else... well.. i hope she'll make good use of it. (I'm satisfied with my mac 8D)

watched Spiderman 3 today. something must be wrong with me for never watching this movie in the 1st place!!!! O_O and Harry died???!!!!!! WTF!!!!!!!???? I LOVE THAT GUY!!!!!!!!! he makes me laugh everytime he did his evil thing... well actually i laughed on every evil scenes... yeah... something is TOTALLY wrong with my head. _-_ ;

well..... i better go take a nap. just wanna do some update here on what's going on and all. will update more on stuff later.... ciao

everything in sabah

I don't flatter myself with my barely tolerable photography taking skills...but nonetheless!!!!! 8D i'm gonna put some of the pictures that i took during holidays here! lol!

lets start with this piece 1st...

the giant octopus in sunway pyramid _-_ ;; i like the colors of the balloon Dx

ahem...rite... sabah pics!!

the fact that we are sharing 1 whole sky with the entire world doesn't change my childish thinking of how the sky is even brilliantly blue in Sabah xD

call me biased but the sunset is prettier here than any other place!!! xD

the sun is shinier i swear no curtains can block out the light!!!!

...and my niece...she likes to barge into my room anytime she wants =_=

her mother is the same... _-_ and a model wannabe pfft. give her pair of shades and camera... she'll survive. oh! and handphone xD

some of my classmates went to sabah for their holidays. didn't follow em. sorry~ i'm a lazy arse~ kehkeh~ but orilia stayed at my place for 1 night. so we brought her to places...beaches... 

sutera harbour's beach
love black n white pic u_u
Segama waterfront~ (look properly in this picture...you will find a hidden orilia there. LOL! i doubt anybody can find her~ oh well~~)

tourist shot..? _-_ ; well...after that we went to tanjung aru 8D

sunset + sea + orilia  xD
+ my niece xD 
I think this photo was taken by orilia... love the shines~ 8D sunset is even exquisite here LOL!

which concludes that... the sun shines more in Sabah!!! and I'm a bloody biased person! LOL!!!!! wahahahahahaha xD

total bliss

well...for now 8D

hmm..i want to write some reviews on the remaining Bridgerton series but..i feel like talking about my incredible holidays more now. haha.

so...to be frank, I didn't do anything at all. hahahahahaha! sleep, eat, read novels, watch movies, tv, songs, games, novels, surf net, more novels... well i did help a bit with cleaning up my house. my family just moved somewhere near kk (well not THAT near i realized =_= like what in the world....) and still got some boxes in the corner and in the middle of the house lol! well..i don't wanna talk about it now *cough*

so.. I practically beg my dad to bring me to Times bookstore in Warisan Square, I LOVE IT!!!!! I LOOOOOOOVVVE IT!!!!! OAO immediately became a member! know what... went hunting for Julia Quinn's books there and HOMG!!!! there's like...the COMPLETE set for Bridgerton series there!!!!!!!! O_O like...HOMG!!!!!!!!!!! I have to ask staff in Borders and Kinokuniya for the book!!!! just 1 book!!! OAO and Sabah got like...THE BLOODY WHOLE SET!!!!!! I'm in heaven!!! and there's like 3 for 2 promotion for julia quinn's books!!!! OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *swoon* I AM SOOO GOING THERE AGAIN!!! I love sabah *wipe tears* and their website is bloody better than Kin*kuniy* keh keh...

TIMES bookstore

I bought 2 more books by Julia Quinn which is "Everything and the moon" and "The secret diaries of Miss Miranda Cheever" LOVE IT! I basically have to FORCE myself NOT to finish reading both of the books in 1 day, and it is NOT easy i tell you!!!!! I can finish 1 book in 5-6 hours? and trust me....2 books is like a piece of cake especially if it's by Julia Quinn!! like...HOMG!!!! .....i better stop saying OMG now... u_u I remember writing in my book, something like :

"if 'oh my god' can clear me out of my sins whenever i say it... I would be as innocent as the day i was born"

xD I have no idea why i wrote that... but i makes me laugh. so oh well~........ i'm being random again am i? =_= ; ahem...

well....i have nothing else to say i guess... somebody tagged me *poke that somebody* might as well paste it here...

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.
i...guess...

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

....uhmm..*clear throat* i..err... ahem..

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

wow...i hope so...well no doubt bout that commitment part tho...

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

swt.. xD i'm not THAT harsh you know...but i do hope i WILL find someone and "fall deeply and beautifully in love" LOL

Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

OF COURSE!!!

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

indeed...indeed...*nod*

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

BE COURAGEOUS!! will keep that in mind!

What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

now this i don't agree... if ppl wanna accept me...accept..if not..well.. not MY problem! im content the way i am 

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
I'm not THAT mature...i think... well... for the advice part..i'll just say what is practical and logic. but the dilemma part is...well...*clear throat* somewhat true...

8D i am to lazy to tag others... if you wanna do it... well... go here { QUIZ }

have fun~ better start with my "work" *cough* haven't been holding pencil for a long time... tralala~ xD